Sometimes I wonder do I actually live with humans?

There are many times when my mind ask this question to me - Why am I born in this era? I don’t think so that this era, this 21^st century is meant for me! I am surrounded with people whom I find difficult to understand. I find it difficult that how can a person think of only himself / herself all the time and don't help the one in need! I find it strange that why people don’t hear their inner voices when they are doing something wrong or while making the other person sad. I can’t express my sadness when I had to become a witness in such situation. I can’t say a victim because from past few years, I have learned to ignore and not to think about those who indirectly hurt or make me sad. I believe that it's only God whom i can trust and no one else. I don’t know how much God feel disappointed when one of his child hurts the other one!

There are so many incidents which I can never forget that has given me a lot of pain. I wonder how can anyone do that. Are you human? Ask yourself. Once I was going in an Auto rikshaw and the traffic was stopped by the traffic policeman. The Auto was on the left side and there was a road going towards left. That Auto was standing covering a bit of that left road as there were other vehicles in front of the Auto. Suddenly from the back a car came who had to take a turn to the left and it hit that Auto. It was a mild hit. The person who was driving the car stopped the car, came out from it hurriedly & slapped the Auto rikshaw driver  hard! I was shocked to see that and my eyes got wet since I had never seen anyone slapping so hard before. He started shouting at the driver asking him that why did he stop the auto there and blamed him! At that time I was just trying to stop my tears because I didn’t want to look stupid  or let anyone know that I was about to cry. The mistake was completely of the Car driver who hit that auto from the back in spite of the fact that the Auto rikshaw was standing on the place. That was the moment when I questioned if that educated owner of the Car was human?

There are many who works in office and remain busy but if someone asks for help, should we ignore it? I have seen many who ignore and don’t help their colleagues. I try my level best to help others as much as I can unless & until it doesn’t affect my work. Initially when i was new, I always ended up completing my work pretty late because in between I used to help others. I believe that if everyone help the one in need a bit, the condition of the offices will drastically improve! Such selfish behavior & non-helping nature of people for their fellow colleagues make me think the same - Are you human?

In today’s world, the one who actually take the responsibility and complete the work on time is considered as a fool! We can never expect from the other team members to help as they believe that the fool will keep on doing that for them! Why the hell people want that fool to change and become like one of them? If that happens then he/she won't take the responsibility of the work realizing the fact it will be again him who had to do it again and again. Do they have an inner voice which tells them- At least this time let me do that, he does that all the time! Ask yourself please - Are you human??

To write this brought a pain in my heart; where am i living? Why is everyone so selfish and self centered? People do ask me that how do I have that innocence on my face! It's only because I still think like a kid. I feel like crying when anyone else cries .I feel sad when anyone else is sad! I feel happy when my friend or any other person gets a job or promotion and not jealous! I don’t think in a manipulative manner & I don’t have that brain to understand anyone’s manipulations too. I think that if any one say -Take care, he or she is actually showing concern to us. I think if anyone say- I am there for you, he or she actually mean that they will be there whenever we need them. I think if anyone say - you are good then that person actually think that we are good! Difficult to understand people nowadays & my stupid brain can’t understand it so better you all ask this question to yourselves - Are you human?